Blue October – Into the Ocean

I’m just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I’d rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I’d be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like ‘fourteen miles away’

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I’m sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I’m cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion… yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I’m left behind
I’m treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I’m reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion… yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It’s midnight’s late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean…end it all

Besides the frequent repetition of “boy”, & the “end it all” suggesting death instead of change, those lyrics have fit my mood for the past…eh…7 months? Not depressed, or sad: just zonked out, wanting to escape. If that’s to Minnesota, or just to escape this hell of a house, or to get away from people in my life that I’m getting to close to: beats me. But this song makes me feel better (( it says what I’ve been trying to get out. ))

It’s a beautiful song — my favorite right now, actually. The lead singer of Blue October has a beautiful voice, to be a guy, and the music isn’t too shabby either.

Anybody wants to get a jump on an early Christmas/Birthday present for me?…other than a gift card to Borders, I would want this CD. You get me either of those, and I will love you until you get sick of me. No joke — try me. 🙂

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Julie Bailey
    Jan 25, 2009 @ 22:37:59

    Very, very, beautiful song. 🙂 🙂

  2. amanda
    Jan 29, 2009 @ 22:27:01

    You were AWESOME to get me that CD. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

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