Can’t we just go now…

So..I’ve made Twilight plans with Nicole.; there is the possibility of us getting Jordan & Julie to go, but I doubt either one of them actually will.

There are few people that I’ve found — N being one of them — that can appreciate this movie without comparing it to the book the entire time. I’ve never seen it with her before, though I have seen it 4 other times, ahem. But she loves Twilight up to the insane level that I do, so we should get along just fine in the theatre. I know for a fact I don’t have to worry about her bashing it or thinking it’s too “different” from the books. We’ve already agreed that it’s wonderful.

Why would you go see it again you ask?
Because. If you had a franchise that you absolutely adored; what other way could you possibly support the actors, producers, author, directors, and the characters better? Going and spending my money on this Twilight industry not only makes me more and more proud about how popular it has gotten, but it makes me happy too. I get to see the movie — and in my opinion (for mine is the only one I’m caring about) — it is freaking awesome. It’s the type of movie you can watch over and over and never get tired of it. Like “Rush Hour”, or “Hannibal Rising”. They’re just too good to watch just once.

And once the DVD gets out, don’t think you’re coming over to my house and not watching it. No such luck XP. Suckers.


The hair, it is gone.

Not mine. Robert Pattinson’s.
But you know what I have to say about it, the only thing I have to say?


Now these screaming fangirls that are so sure that he is Edward Cullen can get over him. People, he is awesome not because of the role he plays, but because of how well he actually plays it. He’s played in a ton of other awesome movies too, “How To Be”, and yes, “HP4: Goblet of Fire”; and he has a new film coming out shortly, “Little Ashes”, based on the life of Salvador Dali.

I respect actors as actors. And yes, I will admit that I am an Edward Cullen fangirl. And a huge Robert Pattinson fan. But I don’t get those two mixed. He’s not the only actor I am a fan of, and I feel deeply sorry for him when at book signings he has girls going, “Oops! I just called you Edward…”

He cut his hair and if I knew any better I would think it was an attempt to see who loved him for him, not for his roles. And the Twi-fans and RPattz fans all seem to have mixed opinions about it. Frankly I think it is his hair and he can do whatever the bloody hell he wants to do with it. Leave him alone people; stop saying it’s the “hair cut heard ’round the world.” Yeah. That was an actual News Article Headline.  :] I’d support him if he was bald.


okay, maybe not bald. *grins*

Too much.

There are so many fields of study I could go into next year, and the year after I graduate. I could go the art route, but I’m not that good at that, whether it interests me or not — I could go with the wolves/zoologist route that I have always loved & I know so much about — I could go with my writing, my passion, and sometime I will admit that I am quite good at — I could take a year off to travel (on my own paycheck), or maybe even go with photography.

So much! I’m leaning toward following my “Zoologist based in Wolf Ethology” career, and maybe I could get my writing done at the same time. Multi-tasking. I’ve always been good at that.

Having my future laid out before me just thrills me. This is one very important part of my life that I have absolute control over. I decide. And whether I fail or succeed, it will be by my bidding.

Well, I’m off to my sister’s for two days. I may log on, probably won’t be able to. I love you all, my inspirations.

Such a merry Christmas

This December 25th helped me realize something (yay for realizations):

My worries are so trivial.
I’ve talked to people in the last 24 hours who have sufficient, mind-numbing, terrible problems to deal with on a day-to-day basis. People who have had some really screwed up shit happen to them; and here I sit, whining about boys or friends or school. They have their lives on the line, and are sometimes doing some pretty terrible things to dim those problems out, but I obliviously complain about things that don’t make a bloody difference.

I need to grow up, and slowly but surely, I think I am. Religiously, fundamentally, physically, culturally — I am growing up. And it’s about damn time. I need to realize that it isn’t just about me or my new presents; just because my old crush has no interest, that is not going to bring the walls down; my dad in the hospital isn’t the end of the world, because he is still in the hospital. Still on this earth. Some people don’t have that luxury with their fathers.

It is very, very sad for me to think that maybe some of my classmates will never come to this realization. They will graduate, date & marry the guy of their dreams, live in subsidized housing with a dog and a nice fake lawn; and they will die, going to church and spoiling their grandchildren like any “Great American Family” member should. No hardship, no grief, and no reality.
I am not wishing grief or hardship on anyone, but if you haven’t been at your lowest, the you haven’t experienced everything that could be with your life. You won’t know you “have it so good” if you’ve always had it that way. To step out, engage yourself with popular & unpopular culture, and work for what you want is healthy and I prescribe it to everyone.
Then, when you actually get the white-picket fence and the nice family, you will appreciate and love and protect them all the more.

I’ve not seen the lowest of my lows. And I don’t look forward to them, but they are there; there’s no avoiding pain or trial. You just have to hold tightly to your seat in the world, and brace for the ride. My seat? My friends. My real, true, lovely friends that I will die for. My family who looks at me and sees a great person without judging me first. My faith in myself. That is my stronghold here.

Out of the Stone Age, and with LCD too

I finished up all the “unwrapping, gifting, smiling, picture-taking” deal about an hour ago, ate breakfast, got dressed, and so now I figured I’d get on here and share my list with you all.
My family isn’t exactly rolling in it, especially not after the tax-problem with the thouse, so it isn’t huge; but I got everything that I wanted, and I’m definitely not complaining:

-My Twilight zip-hoodie! (precious)
-An LCD HDTV 15″ Flatscreen for my room.
-Black, fur-rimmed Ugg boots (snow boots)
-Six different long necklaces that hang down mid-shirt
-Sapphire Earrings
-Two new perfumes; Nollie & Bergamot
-The two books I bought yesterday at Borders
-An Aeropostale hoodie
-A black peacoat that cuts off almost at the knee; it’s long & black, and I have a grey scarf to go with it.
-Pajama bottoms & house shoes (the most comfortable kind you’ll never find)
-Two pairs of jeans
-A silver watch
-About 2,000 SOCKS. =] Only a slight exaggeration.

& then there was the basic candy & knicks like scratchoffs in my stocking. This Christmas was mainly for my mom’s grandkids, so I for once was not expecting us (my stepsister and I) to be the center of attention. Which is fine for me, because I’d rather be out of the limelight when it comes to my family’s attention. With me it always turns into some type of arguing if I don’t stay in the shadows.

I probably won’t be on the computer anymore today, but I might post tomorrow. The rest of my family should be arriving at the house in a few hours, and that’ll be the highlight of my day. Good’morrow, luvs.

How ’bout that!

Let There Be Morning – The Perishers
Forever And For Always – Shania Twain
Wonderful Tonight – Eric Clapton
Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol
The Only One I Trust – City High
Open Arms – Journey
Faithfully – Journey
I Can Love You Like That – Mark Willis
Time After Time – Cyndi Lauper
Champagne Supernova – Oasis
Promise Of You – Edwin McCain
You – Switchfoot
I Knew I Love You – Savage Garden
Truly Madly Deeply – Savage Garden
Bleeding Love – Leona Lewis
We Are Free – Enya
The Memory Will Never Die – Default
Here Without You – 3 Doors Down
I’m Yours – Jason Mraz
She Will Be Loved – Maroon 5
Before It’s Too Late – Goo Goo Dolls
Wait For You – Elliot Yamin
Strawberry Wine – Deanna Carter
You’re Still The One – Shania Twain
Collide – Howie Day
I Need You – LeAnn Rimes
It’s Your Love – Tim McGraw
The Riddle (You & I) – Five For Fighting
Beautiful Day – U2
Come On Get Higher – Matt Nathanson
Love Story – Taylor Swift
The Everglow – Mae
How Do I  – LeAnn Rimes
Commitment – LeAnn Rimes
All My Life – KCI & Jo JO
Love Will Find A Way – Disney
I’ll Be – Edwin McCain

Love songs can be powerful things. I hit shuffle on my Zune (mp3 player) and wrote down all that I could in twenty minutes. And there were alot. And the thing is, I have so many! Some of those songs are my very favorite songs of all time, and some I think are really good, but I can’t think of one that is “bad”. (Or obviously, it wouldn’t be on my Zune).

It just amazes me how much music can move me. I can be listening to one song, jumping all around and giddy, and then change the song, and it bring me to tears with it’s sweetness.
-sigh- I’m such a girl!

Good day =]

My life has actually been interesting lately…

Who knew?!
It’s been pretty cool to be me. :]

I got out of school (for the next 2 weeks) Friday, THANK GOODNESS, and after eating some rather delicious vegetable Chinese (w/eggroll!), I was whisked away to my friend Nicole’s house.
It. was. awesome. Expected it to be 😉 *huggles N*
I call her N. Probably annoys the crud outta her, but it’s become another habit of mine. -shrug-
We stayed up till like 1:30 watching The Dark Knight and The Other Boelyn Girl, which TOBG was a good and thoroughly heartbreaking movie; whilst The Dark Knight was rather disappointed. My expectations were set too high, I suppose, because I watched it and the whole time my minds thinking, “This is what held the box office for so long? That’s what’s making so much money?” But, oh well; I’m just not the “comics & superheroes” fans that a few of my friends are. It’s all just become too cliche` and predictable to me, quite so.

Then after the movies we stayed up to about FOUR THIRTY talking & laughing, eating (unhealthily…) salt&vinegar kettle chips (mm, if heaven had a taste!?! Yum) and talking some more. She helped settle my thoughts about college, I caught her up on some of the gossip at SPHS that she missed. ‘Twas wonderful all around. 

The next day we ate Taco Bell for dinner. Yum!
So then I leave her house late (ahem..saturday night!). I was already suffering from a bad case of sleep-deprivation from the night before, so I went straight to bed and didn’t get up until this morning around 11! I know, I’z so lazy!! But it was an enjoyable lazy. Luvs 🙂

My grandmother was hosting an early “Christmas dinner” that I was somehow tricked into attending;, I wanted to go. I’m trying to get myself out of my room alot more often, and I love spending time with my family. Plus I got to spend more time with my dad. No, for those of you who might possibly have been wondering, he’s not doing any better. His paralysis problems are actually getting worse, and it has be scared to death.

But this post is not about the sad in my life, it’s about the happy. Today he did seem really happy; and the rest of my family was really glad to see me. Since I spent Thanksgiving with my mom’s side of the family, my dad’s side hadn’t seen me since probably..LAST Christmas. For some of them, the others saw me at my aunt’s last babyshower in early June. Which was still a long time ago.
They were all very hilarious and seet, and I enjoyed spending time with them. My cousin, Chris, my age, was as annoying and funny as ever, but I wouldn’t love him any other way. And my granny’s just a fun person to be around.

So now I’m sitting at my house, on my laptop, updating myself with all the things I’ve missed without internet for the past two days. There must be a whole lot because I’m on the computer at 3 AM and this is the first time I logged on to wordpress. My weekend was successful: hang out with friends, check, eat yummy and similarily unhealthy food, check, CRY with said friends about the saddest movie ever known to the history of hopeless romantics and probably one of the worst endings ever ever, check, see my dad and the rest of my family, check, be decent with some of my other friends, also check. I also borrowed ‘The Blood Diamond’, ‘The Covenant’, and ‘Pirates of the Carribean: At World’s End’, all of which I’ve wanted to see. I’ve seen POTC:3 once, but it’s always nice to see them again. In fact, since I can’t fall asleep (and yes, it’s still 3AM, I don’t know what the heck’s up with my sleep capabilities lately, I might just go watch that. Love me some Steven Strait & Sebastian Stan.

Yay :]] It’s good to be me sometimes.

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